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Pastor Tracy, May 20. 2020 - I failed
May 20, 2020, 9:56 AM

I failed.

I had such great expectations, but I failed.

  • I didn’t make those cookies during this COVID-19 crisis, like I expected to and desired to. (Sorry, hubby).
  • I overreacted when Goose-Goose said (not asked, mind you), “What do you mean?” (She never means it. She knows what I mean. I’m speaking perfectly good English. She just wants to hear herself speak, or rethink things, or hear me get frustrated—again—or whatever other unrelated agenda she has.)
  • I gained weight. My friend calls it the “quarantine fifteen,” though I won’t verify any numbers.

And that’s not counting all the books I wanted to read by this point in the quarentine, and the phone calls I didn’t make yet, and the files I wanted to, well, file. Let alone learning a new musical instrument or another foreign language, or actually just re-learning the Spanish that I was supposed to already be fluent in after four semesters in college.


These are only a few of my regrets and admonitions. But the bottom line is:

I failed….

But I’m not a failure.

I just want to clarify that. I’m not a failure.

And neither are you.

Sometimes we can be convinced that we didn’t just fail, but that we are a failure. Here’s the truth. You’re not. Why? Because Jesus says so.

I’m reading a book by Bob Goff, and he says, “If mess-ups were push-ups, I’d be totally ripped. Aren’t you glad God’s response to our failure is always grace? Jesus said forgiveness from Him in an unlimited resource—it never runs out…. Don’t let your failures talk you out of God’s grace.”

I’m not sure I’m capable of being “totally ripped,” but I still think the analogy holds truth. Always, but especially in these crazy COVID days, we need to keep reminding ourselves of that truth. We are not failures. No matter your high expectations of how you’d handle this crisis, or your high expectations of what you hoped to accomplish, no matter how much you beat yourself up with “I should have” and “I failed,” you are not a failure. You are a child of the King, he loves you, and he offers each new moment filled with grace and oozing with hope.

Last week I introduced our new Wednesday night series on the “I AM” statements of Jesus, and we’ll continue that discussion this evening at 6:30 pm. I hope you agree that if the founders of the world’s philosophies and religious systems were alive on earth today, they could only say, “I was.” They are dead, and they can’t personally help us. Jesus doesn’t say, “I was.” He says, “I AM.” He is alive. He can—and does—meet our needs today. He is alive this very moment and offers us a satisfying spiritual life “in the present tense,” as Warren Wiersbe says. “Past history, present reality, and future certainty all unite today in Jesus Christ, the great I AM.” In His I AM statements, Jesus not only tells us who He is, but He also tells us what He can do for us and what we can become through Him. In Jesus Christ, the great I AM, we have all that we need!

I hope you’ll join us for our Facebook Live Bible Study this evening at 6:30. Today’s topic is “The Bread of Life.” In fact, if you want to read John chapter 6 before or after our discussion, feel free. And the sharing question to ponder is: What is the most important bread you eat on a regular basis? A few weeks ago we had the sharing question, “What is your favorite bread?” My favorite (Red Lobster’s cheddar biscuits for one) is not one I eat regularly. What bread is most essential to your daily/weekly routines?

Following our Bible Study tonight, everyone is invited to jump into our all-church Zoom meeting for fun, reflection, discussion, and prayer. We really had a great time at our “first ever” attempt at that last week. We’d love for even more people to join in on the fun!

Until then, blessings on you and your family! And don’t ever forget—I’m here for you!

Pastor Tracy

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